Compunded fears missing for a return?

Hola..

Been hanging around with some south american stuent communities here in the university village and here it goes, probably not my first knowledge of the beautiful spanish language, but a good start anyway.

The evening in sydney is getting warmer, and, it can be said about this social life of skills to be attached to that said temperature.

On my part, nothing beats me into seating upright of my computer chair when events of the world, mostly in geo-political sense, surfaces on the screen of my laptop, bleeding my eyes to read every sentence that runs through them. You see, politics have been my interest, bt not a major of choice, as at this ripe age, responsibly choosing the pathway of life, in academic sense, seems to be lacking alot, unfortunately. The Thais have shown favourable support in the recent military coup and the western world has been voicing regrets over the incident. But....what can you do if the people living the moment in their soil seems to think it's ok. Well, being a nosy busybody sometimes might just embarass you further. BUt hey, superiority rules here. Unfortunately.

Emotions, emotions, emotions........Ever since the day when I took that excess baggage of mine to Changi Airport, despite having a barage of negative "advises" about setting foot in a foreign land down under from perhaps, should i say, "ignorant people", ...well...I've been finding out more about life through this new found independance. Every single thing I ever do here, it's up to my discretion in a responsible manner, and every hurdles and obstacles, there is only one person that could turn it around and mend it somehow or another...ME. Despite being in this grat City and country (which seems to generate alot of negativity back home whose facts seems too unbelievable and "ignorant" to quote), certain emotional attachments refused to leave this entity of mine. Then again, with good friends ann good company, it seriously take away pretty much of that strange stone living in your body/head/mind.....

It has been almost a year since the eventful "dis-attachment" became a great reality of my life. and a half years wasted in that road to nowhere. Being taken for a ride in that last few months and finding it out in a painful way it's not what it was supposed to be. Whatever it is, even whatever that has been sprouted by me, in the background of anger and disappointment then, as officially made a few days back by me, it's really time to let go but without the memories slowly fading. All the sorrys we've been saying to each other, and the goodbyes within fights, let us spend our time in a better colour that promises a bright road ahead....and if you are reading this, my prayers and hopes for you and your family. Disappoint me you may, but not the ones that need you. From the first day we embraced to the last day we did the same for that goodbye, those were the words that i'm always reminding you about. peace out and may we hear from each other soon in the future.

Another episode of emotion: Recently, sitting down on the backyard of my unit, thinking and thinking, I've come to a decision which hurried me to make a long distance phone call to my buddy in Singapore. If anyone can decode this, good on you and if not, ask me in time to come, not now. Well, here it goes:

"In the situation that we've seen and talk about, and we ourselves have been into,

is'nt it obvious that this has always been ending up in the same circumstances where

everything collides. Well, everything in such cases collides ..well a collide of emotion is a collide after all. BUT, don't you realise that when this grp of --------- are involved, it collides according to a same series of pattern. It's just like watching a ------ movie, probably those storylines were depicted from actual life events and of course being a ------ movie, it involves ----- obviously.

Well, as i've discussed it's time to 'boycott' and look for the other genes. It's pretty obvious form the points of events spread out, these people somehow have a low level of dignity and self pride as compared to their other genes in counterpart. Well, what do you think? I THINK SO. And thus, especially me, being in Sydney, where such groups are scarce, might as well rally with this tag of boycott"

I did not really realise that such boycott is in me, but in hoping to find a better someone, in this process well, I did manage to find out in myself that i've been well way practicing it. As it come and go, this certain individual has caught my eye and me, being me, am trying not to be persistent in the pretext of consideration but missing the presence. hahaha.....That person, as any guy would do and say, I will never be that particular person that you had assumed for guys in general when it comes to this matter. INtelligent, smart, outgoing, my kinda thing. So minahs get out...opps....have i revealed something too early? hahahaha

Well, the next time round Zoroukah would be induldging in more serious matters and would branch out linkks to other points of iterest of a more serious nature.

Good Day and good night

As the silence engulf the community ,

the train provides the break providing beautiful backdrops.

To a destination full of serenity

to see and seek that presence till the heart stops.

venom cruize